JUNE 23, 2016 10AM
I wanted to post this sooner after the infusion, but it just wasn’t possible.
I arrived at the clinic about 10 minutes early, and the doctor greeted me at the door. He took me to the patient room, which only had a small table, a stool, and a recliner. I sat down in the recliner, and we went through some of my history, things to keep in mind, how this infusion would work, etc.
He excused himself; the patient in the next room was waking up. I could hear him say to the doctor, “You wouldn’t believe the crazy shit I saw!” I chuckled a little to myself.
When the doctor returned, he had a basket with him with sterile needles and things. He asked if I was ready, handed me some black-out headphones, and I was off.
I kicked the recliner back, put on the headphones and took some deep breaths. After a minute or two, I could feel my finger tips and toes get cold. Soon after, I became very relaxed. Within seconds I was somewhere else. Miles away, in the dark, I was alone with my thoughts.
And then, someone pulled off my headphones. The IV has been removed without my noticing. I shot back into body, and it was like my mind could not align. I was groggy, unsteady in my feet. Everyone sounded very far away, and colors were bright. I struggled to talk but it felt very foreign.
The doctor told me to sit back and just relax a minute. I couldn’t imagine doing anything else, really. Within five minutes, I was in the car on the way home. Just groggy. No other effects persisted.
It had. Even an hour that felt like seconds to me. It wasn’t crazy, or weird. It just was. And that was incredible. It was soft, warm, welcoming. I didn’t mind coming back from that place, and going there again wasn’t a desire. It was all just right.
I made my way through the remainder of the day feeling sluggish and tired. I woke up this morning, and still felt lightly groggy. It’s now 3PM and there’s still some residual tiredness.
My mood, however, has changed completely. My outlook is actually up. I’m making plans. Actually doing things I couldn’t make myself do before. And everything feels alright.
I’m extremely optimistic right now. My next treatment is 9AM Wednesday. These positive effects should only increase as the treatments go. I can see normalcy for the first time in years.
It really feels like I’ve been refreshed. Like my brain had time to perform a quick soft boot.
More information about the personal habits I’m enforcing to ensure my improvement sticks around and gets better coming soon!
I used to listen.
( exactly 1 day and 4 hours after 1st Treatment )