Self-diagnosis is so dangerous.
I truly believed I had Asperger’s. I believed it with every fiber of my being. I thought I finally had the answers to what was wrong.
I remember when I had a particularly bad day at work and went home early because of it. As I was sitting in a restaurant with my mom, she showed me the various symptoms of Asperger’s and my mind screamed YES. THAT’S IT. THAT’S WHAT I FEEL.
$300 later, I found out I don’t have Asperger’s but probably did as a kid. So, while we were on the right track, we weren’t quite there. But that yearn for an answer got me here, in a better head space than I’ve been in since early 2019. Self-diagnosis got me the help I needed, but I still maintain it’s dangerous.
Why, you ask? Well let me explain something that is true for me and might be true for other people.
I truly believe mental diagnoses are a dime a dozen. So many people have depression, so many people have anxiety. With any major mental illness, these “lesser” symptoms are usually pretty prevalent. You might have depression, but what KIND of depression? Exactly. In most cases, you’re thinking “it’s just depression.” The problem is, these sub-branches of depression are all treated with different medications and with different regiments. Screw that diagnosis up and you could be catapulting yourself into unneeded suffering. It sucks because we all do it to try to help ourselves. Usually when you’re in that position, you genuinely want some relief and are trying to get it. Quickly, for that matter.
I don’t like how “common” mental diagnoses have become for so many reasons. While I’m so happy we’re all finally getting relief, people are also looking for answers in places they shouldn’t because there is SO much information out there. Sure, my dysthymia is unique to me, but when you desperately need a diagnosis, a mental health professional is the person you should be seeing. I’ve spent a lot of money and sacrificed a lot of time to do this the right way so I can get the best care for me. What works for you might not work for me and vice versa; it’s dangerous to think your body is the same as someone else. Treat is as the unique smattering of star matter and chemicals it is and go see someone who can understand you. I promise getting diagnosed is one of the best things you can do, even if you’re only SLIGHTLY thinking about doing it.